Todays post is going to be a little different. I personally have been having trouble with my confidence and my strength in God. I certainly do not doubt him…but I am often doubting myself.
For anyone that knows me – this will surprise you, but I don’t really have the words to say today. I have prayed and prayed, but honestly I have nothing.
I hesitate posting when my heart doesn’t feel as though God has laid something on it. So today I am simply going to post some of the bible verses I have been reading…trying to “find myself” I guess :-).
One thing I have learned is that sometimes God is quiet and he makes you search for your answers.
Sometimes you already know your answer, you just have to allow yourself to find it.
Either way, sometimes it is during the search or during the discovery of your answer…you grow the most.
Sometimes, silence is Ok and reading and meditating on his word is what one needs.
So here are a few verses…I encourage you to look them up in your own bible and read more deeply into them.
2 Timothy 1:7 (NIV)
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.
Sometimes we lack confidence and if you are anything like me, when you lack confidence…it is confidence in yourself you are lacking. Sometimes I forget, in and of myself I am weak…but with God I am strong and powerful. It is not me that I am serving or promoting, it is GOD!
When I hesitate to share my faith with someone or something similar, I am not hesitating because I doubt God, but because I myself feel inadequate and afraid.
I am focusing on my humanness and my human capabilities…I forget that God promises to be there and lead me; I forget that “I” am not the one who has to do the speaking! I am not sharing my faith in “me” but my faith in God!
God wants us to be strong and confident IN HIM! He has given us his spirit to provide our confidence and strength.
I have set the LORD always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
God goes before me, he creates my path and makes my way. He never promised “easy” but he did promise the outcome would be “worth it”.
Even when doubt, fear, insignificance or shame present themselves…I will not veer off the path he has set before me because he is at my right hand…holding my hand and guiding me.
Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.
When God tells us to pick up our cross and follow him…he never expected us to never “feel” concerned or afraid.
He promises to be there and to guide us. He also tells us to Cast our cares onto him…he knows we will worry and fear, but he wants us to give him our worry and fear.
When we place our cares upon him, we are trusting him to hear our cries and trusting that he will let his will be done. He promises to sustain us and never let us fall.
Again, that is not a promise of a simple life…but a promise of never being left alone to fight any battle in this life.
Sometimes, as I said above, I believe that God is silent. I don’t believe he is silent because he has left my side, but I think he is being a father.
Like a father teaching his child to ride a bike; He holds on at first, but has to let go in order for the child to learn. The father still stays close and if the child falls…he is right there to pick him up. Soon though, because the father let go…the child will ride like a champ and have many years of enjoyment!
I apologize this post isn’t very “post like” but sometimes believe it or not, even those of us who are “Chatty Cathy’s” are struck with a lack of words.
I encourage anyone reading this to seek God’s wisdom and God’s strength. It is out there and he will give it to us freely, just remember…he might make you do a little leg work :-)!